Let me bring you up to date / my girlfriend loves to suffocate
With everything I do its up & down, I fluctuate
Between love & hate / stopping me from touching great
Push it to the end until I see something break
I’m only being real, I was told to keep it real
The deal is I feel colder than a sheet of steal
No longer even keel, now I’m high strung
Look into the mirror I don’t like what have Ive become
I’m a stranger to myself / I’m a danger to my health
And it’s sad that I see myself blaming someone else
For the way that I felt and the way that I dealt was drugs
The only person that has ever shown me love
Unconditionally, whether cookin in the kitchin for me
Or maybe bitchin at me / whatever she did
She did it for me / She did it for me
I grow older but I only grow colder
Push away the people that seem to grow closer
I’m supposed to better than I was before
If I put it into words I would underline & underscore
Every conversation is a tug-o-war
I said, Every conversation is a tug-o-war
Make me wanna grab a drink & play some shuffle board
Just get away / may be an escapist
So damn abrasive, it’s hard to embrace it
Ask her for the time, She says look at the clock
Try to hold her hand & she ask me to stop
She wanna see me more / dedicated a week
I ask her for a kiss & she gave me the cheek
That’s the type of shit that makes me wanna go cheat
That’s the type of shit that makes me write to the beat
That’s the type of shit that gives me ammo & fuel
That’s the type of shit that makes a man lose his cool


I Heard the grass is greener on the other side
Maybe I should give the other side another try
Maybe I should focus on making improvements
Maybe I’m I’m too selfish on making my music
I Heard the grass is greener on the other side
Maybe I should give the other side another try
Maybe I should focus on making improvements
Maybe I’m I’m too selfish on making my music


I contemplate leavin like Lebron from Cleveland
I’m a catch-22 and do things without reason
Trust me when I tell you, I desire my girl
But part of me wants the entire world
Nothing personal, it’s only my preference
I wish that I could change but it’s stuck in my essence
Mentally I’m gone but physically there
Blank stare on my face as I sit in a chair
Watching her watch romantic comedies
I wish that that was funny but it’s drama to me
You know that I’m a perv, dream about groupies
Kevin Spacey, American Beauty


I Heard the grass is greener on the other side
Maybe I should give the other side another try
Maybe I should focus on making improvements
Maybe I’m I’m too selfish on making my music
I Heard the grass is greener on the other side
Maybe I should give the other side another try
Maybe I should focus on making improvements
Maybe I’m I’m too selfish on making my music